The Fine Line Between Pleasure and Pain
What hurts worse… being beating with a whip by a woman…. Or having a woman break you wee little heart? Pain can bring sexual pleasure. The agony of heart break can too. I am fascinated by rejecting men.
I am not a man hater. But damnit, something about getting them all wound around my little finger and then denying any further attention turns me on. I love their wounded looks. I love it when they beg with desperation or in little wimpers.
I love to meet a guy and lead him on for a few weeks, or even months. I may even fuck him. I especially like it when he is a guy whose not really into BDSM or being “controlled”. I love it even more when they tell me, “well Pagan I know you have fun with that but it’s not my thing”. Yeah right.
I met a guy name Roger, a professional person. We got involved, he was not into being dominated. Not at first at least, and not in the traditional “whip me, beat me” sort of way. I liked that.
I am a mistress of manipulation; I know how to play anybody’s stupid game. I played Roger’s game in HIS way, for a while. I fucked him so well, he kept revealing more and more to me. Once I got him where I wanted him… I invited him over and ended the relationship. I gave no real reason, and when he asked… I was vague intentionally. I wanted him to wonder. I knew it would eat away at him.
I love his pathetic voicemail messages. He sounds so sad, and lonely. He just left me yet another one today. He said he misses me so much and he feels “lost” without me. Awwww poor dumb Roger. It’s too late.
Don’t men realize that there are women like me in the world? I enjoy their pain in any method I can get it.
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